Moving Day

This weekend I helped my daughter pack Truitt's bedding, clothes and toys away.  They finally moved out of the house that held so many flashbacks of one horrible day.  I could see it was so hard for Lacy to do what seems like filing away your own baby. It makes things seem so ultimately terminal, so cold, so eternal to put everything she had left to grasp of her baby, and pack it away in box. Thank the Lord that as His children, we still have the surety of seeing Truitt again, and as final as it feels now, it is not the end.

Everything we do is altered. From setting the dinner table to me buying the grandkids a treat at the store.  Everything reminds us of our missing piece. As a large family, we always have to count how many we have going and how many seats we need in the vehicle, and how many are in car seats to makes sure we can accommodate everyone in one vehicle or if we need two for our outing.  Fixing dinner plates, sippy cups, how may seats and high chairs at the restaurant are needed, it never ends.  We are constantly having to readjust our thinking to not include Truitt in our everyday lives.  We took a family trip to the Zoo shortly after Truitt's death.  Breylon and his cousin, who is just weeks younger than Tru Tru, had a great time and ooed and ahhed at all the animals.  The rest of us, without saying a word, knew we were all thinking of Truitt and how much he would have enjoyed it too. Last week we all went to Six Flags, and Breylon had a ball. Although we all really enjoyed ourselves, many times, we all silently missed Tru Tru and wished he could have been there to enjoy the fun with us.  That's when it starts to feel unfair, not right, just downright wrong that he isn't with us anymore.

So what do we do? Never have fun again? Never take family outings because Tru Tru can't be here to go with us? Of course not. I know we must continue to live.  We must push through this, for our well being, but especially for Breylon.  How sad it would be for him, and for my children, if the rest of us just shut down.  And what would it say of the love and mercy of God if we didn't allow it to penetrate us and move us out of our misery?

"The will of God will not take you where the grace of God will not protect you.". Although this is not a verse from the Bible, there are many scriptures that prove it a true statement.

But the Lord is faithful, who shall stablish you, and keep you from evil. - 2 Thessalonians 3:3 KJV

There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it. – 1 Corinthians 10:13 KJV

In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. – Proverbs 3:6 NKJV

Jer. 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

Phillipians 4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.